Let me tell you the story of iAM; a journey of consciousness…
Once upon a time there was the ‘AM’ then after awhile there was the ‘i’ (this took a long time but things are being condensed here a bit). The ‘AMi’ is ALIVE but don’t know it. This created the question ‘AMi’ ?
This took a long time to answer but finally the ‘i’ became self aware, it WOKE UP and became an ‘I’. The ‘I’ felt it was more important than the ‘AM’ and put itself FIRST. It took the ‘AM’ for granted. To the ‘I’ the ‘AM’ became an ‘am’ forming a ‘Iam’, also known as a HUMAN BEING. This was unfortunate as it created some nasty side effects…
One of which is that without the ‘AM’ the ‘Iam’ feels something is MISSING. But doesn’t know what it is. It causes an EMPTINESS, a feeling that there is never ENOUGH.
These ‘Iam’ers are so distracted in this state that they can’t really think clearly. They come to believe that any thing important is OUTSIDE of themselves. A kind of FRENZY happens.
All the ‘Iam’ers COMPETE with each other for what is NEVER ENOUGH, trying to FILL the INNER EMPTINESS with outside STUFF trying to GET what is MISSING inside. All this GETTING puts all of their attention OUTSIDE of themselves. They seek OTHERS to FILL the EMPTINESS with all the stuff of LIFE; family, relationships, jobs, etc and collect STUFF (money, security, power, things, etc) to reassure themselves they have ENOUGH.
All the ‘Iam’ers are trying to do the same thing. This creates a lot of STRESS, STRIFE, COMPETITION and the like. Worst they have to try to PROTECT and HANG ON to the STUFF; the THINGS, the MONEY or the RELATIONSHIP when they get it. This just makes them more FRANIC, SUSPICIOUS and COMPETITIVE. It is a SORRY state of affairs.
The ‘Iam’ers end up feeling FRUSTRATED, ANGRY or ALONE, NEEDY, HELPLESS and FEARFUL. Unfortunately this has to go on for a long, long time before somebody notices this sorry state. This is because everyone is in the same condition.
‘Iam’ers are always trying to correct this predicament by FIXING the world around them. Of course they are SURE they KNOW how to FIX things. They believe they are RIGHT about it. Often they start FIGHTING other ‘Iam’ers over who is the most RIGHT. This goes on for a long time too…
Finally one day, after much HUMILIATION, a few of these ‘Iam’ers discover they are TRAPPED by all this. They become aware of the INNER dimension of LIFE. All this humiliation makes them HUMBLE. The ‘I’ part of the ‘Iam’erSURRENDERS and becomes the ‘i’, a humble version of the ‘I’. They learn to SEE things as they ARE not how they WISH or WANT them to be. They REALIZE they are a part of the PROBLEM and start FIXING themselves.
A day comes when something wonderful happens; this new humble ‘i’ meets the ‘AM’ after EONS of separation. For a brief moment they become the ‘iAM’, they are ONE, together again but now they are FULLY AWARE of each other. This is a very happy REUNION indeed! The EMPTINESS becomes FULLNESS and there is a feeling that nothing is MISSING. Unfortunately this does NOT LAST very long. But the TASTE of this AWAKENS a FIERCE DESIRE to have this experience again.
This new, inspired ‘i’ STRIVES hard to have the experience again. It seeks to LEARN everything it can about the ‘AM’. It reads books, goes on pilgrimages and seeks teachers that can give them KNOWLEDGE about the ‘AM’ and show them how to recover this experience.
This can take a LONG time but eventually the ‘i’ experiences the ONE-ness again, then again and again until the ‘i’ merges with the ‘AM’ and becomes the ‘iAM’. This is a very, very HAPPY condition indeed!